Here's my thoughts on drunks... Not proud to admit it but I've tied one on a few times and have good recollection of the events including the actions of others and what I always see is ones hidden inner workings come to the surface.
Had a brother in law that moved in with my parents.... always a bit suspicious about his intentions and his true thoughts. He would come out to the garage and drink a few beers while I was working on my car and never an issue.. one night he decided to mix some of my rum in with his beer and that's where I learned who he was and what his intentions were. The night ended with him beeing very insulting then violent ending with him face on the floor in a choke hold. He never spent another night at my parents and moved out within a week.... the cat was out of the bag.
So my belief is what one does while drunk is what one wishes to do while sober but resist out of fear.
As a blackout drinker, one snapout, where I did end up pissing on some ones bedriom carpet, i thought i was pissing in a urinal at the co jail annex(i had been at the jail earlier that day, working off a 'month of sundays' for a DWI), snapped out of it cuz the Woman of the house was going off, trying to rub my nose init, i shook my head loose, realizing wtf i had done, freaked the **** out, crying apolologies, wrestled loose, ran out of the house and didnt stop running until home 3 miles away....was a holiday party and of course i was one of the die hards.....Beer...lots of Beer, which is usually All i ever drank.......Beer IS Alchohol, & enough of it gets one quite drunk....two heaviest blows i ever did, 0.28 & a 0.29.5 nothing but beer.....i only weigh 140 on avg.
Once i start drinking, i cannot stop, i do not pass out.....i hallucinate completely different surroundings...worse a mix, things, people that are there blended with those that are not.....took a boat one night because i thought it belonged to a friend i Thought i was talking to(in abother State @ time)but not there, my fantasy said how do You like my new boat(a flat deck ski boat w/ 427, dry basset OT headers & Berkley jet pump) which was very real, then said take it for a ride....the keys were init, @ 3AM in a cove of the Colo river near Yuma, it was a loud bastard....i drove the boat out, did some hot laps crossing my wakes....steering cables were binding at the stops, having to yank it back off either one, took it back to the beach, beached it, got a long *** ski rope out, tied it to bow eye & ran it up to a trailer & tied it up.....then i was grabbed with my arms pulled behind my back with cuffs going on...of course lm wtf is going and Cop says i just stole the boat to which i replied that it was a Friend's...He said, yeah, where is He?, third time i yelled out His name, i snapped out of it, my blood drained realizing what had just taken place. The boat had just drifted into me as i was sitting in water drinking my qt of chivas regal, having my imaginary conversation. Turns out another drunk fool had left His boat adrift, spacing it out....whiich it could have drifted out of cove into river and probably ended up a loss. I did not go to jail, was trying to hitch the hell out of there next day so ashamed, when the Guy's Old Lady drives up & asked if i was the one who had created the chaos....tail between legs i admitted i was, All She did was Thank Me, & God that i happened to be there to Prevent them from losing the boat that she didnt like because all their money was wrapped init, & Her old man had gone black out & left their investment in jeapordy.
The only other drug ive done that comes this close in scariness is jimson weed. Totally twisted realities, half real, half hallucination. Coke, Speed, Barbituates, Psychedelics.....nada, no, i NEVER forgot who the **** i was or where i was with any of those.....certain metabolisms have allergic reaction to over consumption of alchohol...unfortunately, im one . It took a whole lot more ******* up before i finally got tired of the baggage....i lost a 68 Gibson SG, didnt do it, a final DWI is when i finally got smart & got the **** out of my life, seeing clearly that i was going to end up dead, & worse, cause harm to another, plus the burden i was being on everyone around me....fortunately, ive always been a finessed driver, no collisions ever ...between God, my dead Mother, & my sub concious, i never took anyone out.....i stopped drinking, July 14, 1992, dead cold turkey, no AA, no rehab.....once i became absolutely clear with myself what Had to be done, a piece of cake, never looked back, the desire to ever drink again died that day.
This kind of behaviour is a certain percentage of drinkers..any percentage is Bad Bad Ju Ju.
Of the substance gauntlet i ran, ill promote psychedelics & reefer anyday, defend them against anyone, but Alchohol being the legal drug, that society rams down the throat along with sex as the in ****....its a Major Problem...i hate BEER DAY...superbowl sunday.
I was never a potential threat drinking cia kool aid, or any other psychedelic......and Weed, cmon People....lung damage from smoking, but reefer madness is a hallucinatuon. Bottom line is, One cannot make Sound & Accurate judgements about Anything, until one has walked the mile.
The way sex & booze are pounded into every bodies brain by advertising, party party party, is a set up for recurring disasters.....if alchohol wasnt as prevalant, date rape would not be as tall of a Statistic in my Honest Experienced Opinion. As Freud would have it, i cant stand being around Drunks! And ANY Rape, Violation of a Woman's Being is Absolutely Intolerable.....VILE ****, those who stoop so low should be SHOT on Conviction, As should all murderers, with the exception of Manslaughter....any direct aggression against an individuals sovereignty needs to be put to bed directly......Thieves sgould be dealt with more harshly.....kill the capital criminals to leave room in prisons for gangsters, those who prey on the livlihoods of others. IMO
father of three girls here 
