so many great people here... thanks to everyone.... the worst part is waiting for results & not knowing !! I feel helpless & I'm usually not that type of person, I'm a very controlled, regimented or structured person, I like to be well informed on everything & this stuff is out of my realm, by far... I have a great family structure too, but my Pops has asked me not to call all of them yet, he's really independent, has been for a long time too... I think it's just doesn't want to worry them & I want to be a good son, follow his wishes, but I did call my girlfriend Honey {she know some medical stuff/ helps me with what it all means} & one of my older sisters, I have 5 sisters & 2 bros. {she went thru this with my mother, who lived very close to her, before we lost her 10 or so years ago now} I hope Pops isn't too pissed, I'm sure he will get over it too, but I had to talk to someone... thanks everyone again for all your well wishes & prayers